I know I’m pretty smart. I have a PhD in molecular biology and they don’t exactly give them away with cornflakes but I could be much smarter.
I’m nowhere near as clever as Stephen Hawking or Randy Schekman. Sometimes it bugs me, the microscope nerds on the nerd forum seem to know so much about everything. They are extremely pleasant, and patient, and generous with their time and knowledge but I would like to contribute more.
I’d like to be able to answer a question with total confidence instead of having to post an “I may not quite have understood this correctly” disclaimer.
It’s that feeling you get of taking a lot and giving very little back. I ask questions but I rarely have any answers for newcomers. I want to be able to help a bit. If it wasn’t an online forum I would make the coffee and hand out biscuits – anything to be useful.
I know I haven’t been playing with microscopes for very long and I know that I will learn and that eventually I will become wise but right now I feel a bit stupid.
It would be easier to be very stupid. People who are very stupid never seem to realise it. Ignorance is bliss as the saying goes. I am always acutely aware of how much I don’t know.